Gosh! Do you ever know how much I hate racists or hate to be one?!
But people are driving me to be into that state. serious i cannot take it.
hate a "fight" in class today. cause i just couldnt take it.
during english period, we were asked to do performance task.
i have always been with the malays since sec one.
but this time my grouping was with chinese.
so i find it abit hard to communicate with them.and i decide to change grouping.
and Mrs Goh changed to with Azrul. then Mabel keep calling me betrayer.
its like i didnt even betray them or whatever shit ah. then she call me that.
like being so ridiculous.and i got fed up and returned back to my seat.
i started shouting at them,asking them to go back to their seats.
but i got even more fed up so i punched Samuel.i think its bcos he said something ah.
then I also throw the pieces of worksheet at Mabel.I also shouted at Marcus.
then Mabel shouted back to me. I almost cry out suddenly. But i manage to control.
I totally ignore Mabel till Geography lesson begins.

Seriously. I really hate to discriminate people. I dont like that feeling.
I dont wanna be a racist of my own kind or whatever stuff.
But they are driving me to be one. Today, I got to know another side of me.
Which is when Im really mad or fed up with people, I can really do crazy stuff.
But thanks goodness, Qash went home with me.We talked.I manage to calm down.
I really find that I need to be with the right people who understands me and,
wont hurt my feelings. People like Qash, Ameirah and some other which....
I usually will hang out more with them. I felt that they understands me more.
Thank you guys for not hurting my feeling. (:

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