Friday, July 31
Being Restless is Helpless.

feeling so restless these days.
in school is like, hoping school would end soon.
but luckily sec three dont really have to stayback that often.
but next year, sec four, i think have eh.
like got remedial classes and whatever extra lesson after school.
i wonder if i can take it or not. hahaha.
well. today's friday alr. hoping that tmrw im allow to skate.
cause Qash told me that lin and dont know who else going east coast.
i wanna go there ah. dying to go to the new skatepark.
yeah. then this sunday, sec three normal, having CIP.
oh man! so packed. dont feel like going but they say...
if never go, must go for make up lesson doing something else.
today in school was okay. had pe, played captains ball with the girls.
after recess, eliana and ade was like looking and talking abt guys ass.
merepek right? like nothing better to do.hahahaha!
i was laughing about the comment that they made.
all i can say now is..... boring boring boring boring boring.
fucking boring. fucking boring. boring. boring. fucking boring!!!!!!! hah.
kay ah,that is all. nothing much left to say. just, "I wanna skate!!"
Goodbye. Tc.
Labels: dying to skate now.
Thursday, July 30
Racism;
Gosh! Do you ever know how much I hate racists or hate to be one?!
But people are driving me to be into that state. serious i cannot take it.
hate a "fight" in class today. cause i just couldnt take it.
during english period, we were asked to do performance task.
i have always been with the
malays since sec one.
but this time my grouping was with
chinese.
so i find it abit hard to communicate with them.and i decide to change grouping.
and Mrs Goh changed to with Azrul. then Mabel keep calling me betrayer.
its like i didnt even betray them or whatever shit ah. then she call me that.
like being so ridiculous.and i got fed up and returned back to my seat.
i started shouting at them,asking them to go back to their seats.
but i got even more fed up so i punched Samuel.i think its bcos he said something ah.
then I also throw the pieces of worksheet at Mabel.I also shouted at Marcus.
then Mabel shouted back to me. I almost cry out suddenly. But i manage to control.
I totally ignore Mabel till Geography lesson begins.
Seriously. I really hate to discriminate people. I dont like that feeling.
I dont wanna be a racist of my own kind or whatever stuff.
But they are driving me to be one. Today, I got to know another side of me.
Which is when Im really mad or fed up with people, I can really do crazy stuff.
But thanks goodness, Qash went home with me.We talked.I manage to calm down.
I really find that I need to be with the right people who understands me and,
wont hurt my feelings. People like Qash, Ameirah and some other which....
I usually will hang out more with them. I felt that they understands me more.
Thank you guys for not hurting my feeling. (:
Goodbye. Tc.
Labels: I want Saturday to come fast.
Wednesday, July 29
falling apart;
God! My gastric flu is back again. boring!
might be visiting the doctor later. hopefully will be back school tmrw.
the whole day i stayed at home, watching tv, sleeping and manage to eat abit.
momma just went out to work. dad's gonna be back at 4 i think.yeah.
and i missed my combined science and d&t test today.
all i need is a MC and i wont get a zero for both papers especially for the combined science.
currently feeling giddy, weak and my tummy/gastric still hurts.
when can i get well from this illness? its been haunting me since sec 1. ):
kay i better stop whining now.ahahah. nothing much now.
Goodbye. Tc.
Labels: i wanna skate till i drop lah.
Tuesday, July 28
stupidity;
Azrul got warded to hospital today again.Thanks to Shaiful.
Man! He just felt better and came back school.
and now, returned back to hospital. damn. kay moving on.
school have been fine. common test started this week.
monday was English. today's mathematics. tmrw's combined science and d&t.
English was alright. I wrote the topic about
'What are the advantages and disadvantages of remedial lessons?'
I just anyhow thought of something to write.then blahblahblah out.
today's maths was a mess. i felt so restless and i anyhow do. -.-"
tmrw's combined science and d&t also sure die. stresssssss.
yesterday's d&t lesson was practical.and i used up the entire
1.5 hour filing and buffling a piece of acrylic.like totally a waste of time.
i got to be faster alr.cant afford to waste more time.
im afraid that i wont have enough time to finish up the whole thing.
and Mdm Chua told us that every monday which is practical lesson.
they will conduct a spot check at the near end of the lesson.
and because of Shah and Shaiful again. argh! really feel like killing them.
hahaahha. always get into trouble then the whole class gets blamed too.
kay gotta go soon. will try to update soon. tatas.
Goodbye. Tc.
Thursday, July 23
days goes by;
hello people. haha. havent been using the comp for days.
either its because dad dont allow or too late for me to use.
hah. but i dont really care ah. nothing to do anyway.
only chatting with friends, surfing the net and checking events.
alright, lets talk about school. for the past few days, happened many things.
fights going on and on. my class been real insane and crazy lately.
especially the boys, like somehow outta control. -.-"
wondering if tmrw wanna join Eliana, Salleh and friends for bowling.
im not sure. cause if i go with them, i might not be able to skate on Sat.
like fuck right? my dad and momma like what seh. sad.
im only allowed to skate on Sat. like im being jailed like that.
pissed off with my parents. argh. well, sis found a new job.
gonna visit her one day. hope she's doing fine and having fun working.
kay thats way for today. i dont think i can online for a few days again.
so anything, just contact me through texts or call. but texts is preferable. :D
lazy to answer calls ah. hahahah. all right, hope saturday doesnt rain pleaseeee!
goodbye. tc.
Monday, July 20
heartbreaks;
expecting your texts/calls but ended up nothing is an heartbreaking moment.
hoping for something good from you but nothing is an heartbreaking moment.
not hearing things from you is an heartbreaking moment.
losing you is an heartbreaking moment.
thinking about you but nothing can be done is an heartbreaking moment.
everything that reminds me of you is sweet but its also another heartbreaking moment.
should i just move on or should i just hope for an miracle to happen?
all i ever want now is you. nothing but you.
i miss you like fuck. i want you badly. i cant stop thinking about you. i need you.
but i don't have the guts to tell you cause i don't wanna pressurize you.
i dont wanna see you upset anymore cause im not feeling good.
i want you but im afraid to hurt you again. im just so afraid of falling in love.
it feels great to have a companion but how long will it lasts? nothing lasts forever.
i miss you soooooooooooooo much, jeff...
Labels: i want nobody nobody but you.
Sunday, July 19
hey.sorry for not updating any happenings.was sick for the past few days,having fever/cough/flu and headaches.fever was back to normal today.so no worries.will do a proper post when i have time.hopefully tmrw.takecare people. goodnight! <3(I want every Saturday to come quick.)
Labels: obsessed with skateboarding
Monday, July 13
wooooo!hah.today school was good.had fun and stuff.
morning came to school early cos momma needa go work early.
but actually its okay.arrived at school,Eliana was in the class already.
after that,Ameirah came with her deck.cos she didnt went home. -.-"
then i played with her deck.skated here and there,did ollie a few times.
then back to my seat to continue my work.after finishing up,
back to playing with her deck.andandand you know what i saw?!
i saw this and this in my class.on the floor and on the cardboard.

I heard that its drawn by
Rusydi on Friday.
hahahah! Awesome yeah? we have our very own
MJ coffin in our class.
hah.sorry
MJ,we never meant to be rude. this is just sorta our way.
alright,lets carry on. after morning assembly,read newspaper.
english lesson,continued with what we have stop on.
Mrs Goh said, "If next lesson,you all still not bringing dictionary.
I will have to send you to detention." like what the heck right?! hah.
i bought my dictionary but when she asked us to find words...
i was freaking slow.haha! i was like, "uh? what word? wait wait,im finding."
Eliana was like, "
Regina slow ah." then we laughed, they(others) laughed.
after english,was physics.did my work.class was fun with
Mr Haniff.
mother tongue.we got a new chinese teacher cos
Ms Lim have to go study.

so what we did was talking,i was playing with my tech deck and
Jaime was texting.
the rest was laughing, talking and sorta bullying the teacher.
talk about chinese.i still didnt finish with the chinese performance task. =p
after chinese,recess.ate nasi goreng and drink milo.today's nasi goreng was spiiiiiiicy!
i drank the packet of milo but still wasnt enough to qrenched the spicyness.
but i didnt care much so went off to sit with my class near quadangle.
after recess,maths.
Mrs Ding was fed up with the class today.so as usual,didnt teach.
so as usual,i played with my tech deck again.the rest was talking,singing and stuff.
i know that the class was too much but i couldnt stop laughing along with them. heh.
after maths was design and technolgy lesson.today we started on doing our product.
and know what?! im in deep shit. i couldnt cut the acrylic straight and
it turned out to be crocked.so i tried to make it look better but.....
it got worse instead.so now i have to waste somemore time to make
it look better for me to paste them together.my product,
i have to change abit cos the one that i planned was like impossible.
and the one that im working on now,is killing me.ahah.im in deep shit. really.
at the near end of D&T,talked wth
Wen Siew cos she was having D&T lesson too.
and at the same workshop.discussed a little.and then headed back to class for journal.
Mr Sukaimi now take us during journal period.today's article was about the
Peranankan.
and I am mixed of
Peranankan and chinese.but more to the chinese cos of my dad side.
how cool is that right? but whatever it is, i am still more interested with the
Peranankans.
oh yes, i am.hah. after school,headed home straight.ate oatmeal with milo.
oh my gosh!it was kinda gross. tasted so weird. shouldnt have added milo in it. yucks!
hah.then i went to sleep.
Dad came back,i woke up and had dinner.
just looked at a friend's blog.theres something.i was upset but kinda happy too.
but upset is conquering more than happy.hah.whatever! just hope they last long.
now i just wanna focus on
studies, skating, friendship and family.
(although i want a boyfriend now. -.-" kental!)alright,this is all about today.will continue updating about myself.
Cheerios! ^^
Sunday, July 12
go skateboarding;
ahah!sorry for not updating yesterday.
came back home from grandparents' house at 12.
so damn tired, sleepy and ......what else? hah.
okay.lets begin about yesterday's outing.
met up with Zafran and Qash at cityhall.
went to peninsular to check out the deck price.
wasnt satisfied so we went off skating to OG at somerset.
Qash and I was somehow quarreling while otw.
Zafran was like laughing away.so reached somerset.
met up together with Haziq at OG,the skateshop.
i bought Almost deck with Magnesium trucks.


after that,we went off to skatepark to skate.
settle down awhile,then Qimi came.
skated skated skated.Ameirah and her friend joined us too.
i was so damn hyperactive yesterday.like crazy,ya know!?
yeah.had alot fun together with them.
too bad that San and Fido didnt join us.hopefully they will soon.
it started to drizzle abit,so we went off to Citylink.
after one hour,we went off.to eat then go home.
cos i have to be home early, sadly.ahah.
reached Tampines,it started to rain heavily.
but thank Goodness i brought my umbrella.
if not,i'll be drenched like hell and so is my new deck.
today.wanted to skate again.cos my sister wanna learn.
but daddy didnt allow.he said that i have to revise today.
sister gonna join us for dinner tonight i think.gud. :D
cant wait to skate again with my new deck and truck. Awesome yeah?
hah.alright,thats all for now.goodbyes!

New griptape.
New, shiny and so damn ROUGH!hahah.

Ferst deck. Projekt.
been with me for a year. (:
(with Zafran now. Just lending.)
Ferst and second deck. hah.
Labels: i love my new deck. all i need now is new wheels and bearings. hah.
Friday, July 10
zooooom!hah.thursday school started at 8.20am.
its great!they should be it pernament everyday.
i feel more energetic,awaken and hyper like that.
its good,ya know!hahah.the rest of the lesson were good too.
today(Friday, 10 July).finished school at 12.30pm.
lesson were alright.but were kinda sleeping in between lessons.
hah!im not sure why i felt so sleepy these days.
like slept for 5 or 6 hours,still felt tired and sleepy.
after school,supposingly to meet sister.
but it was raining heavily while otw home.so cancelled.
stayed at home,ate abit,slept for awhile.day dreamed.ahah!
parents came back.went out to Tampines 1 to eat and walk.
tmrw.gonna skate at somerset.gonna check out the price for decks.
hopfully it wont rain tmrw.pleaseeeeeeeee!! :D
and hopefully i'll be getting a new deck tmrw.hah.
here are some pictures of what i took from my physics textbook...
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1st: not sure. 2nd: not sure. 3rd: Albert Einstein.

1st: Galileo Gali-something. 2nd: not sure. 3rd: not sure.

1st:name unknown.but ferst lady to be a scientist.
Passed away due to too mach contact with X-rays.
And diagonsed with leukaemia.
2nd: not sure. 3rd: not sure.

1st: not sure. 2nd: not sure too.
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Labels: please do not rain tmrw. :\
Wednesday, July 8
today school was just fine.all the lessons today was one hour.
not really looking forward to it but it turned out to be alright.
(not gonna elaborate all but just briefly about some lessons.)
mother tongue.jaime didnt attend school today.so i was kinda left out.
ahah.but still,manage to enjoy it.sat with wei si and zac.did some work.
after mother tongue,was design and technology lesson.
did some hands-on group work today.like cutting and pasting.
my cutting skills was cocked up totally.havent been cutting for quite some time.
after school,took bus with ameirah and asyiqin together.
reached home.ate cup noodle cause i was kinda hungry.and a big bunch of grapes.
watched some tv shows then tuned into bed for some naps.
dad came back.i continued with my sleep.woke up at 6 and went out for dinner.
just now did some revision beforeusing comp.dad says i have to at least revise for an hour.
so i did.and now im using the computer.ahah.currently chatting with aniq.random chats.
i took some pictures in my physics textbook.pictures of scientists.i know its lame. :D
will show you guys the pictures soon.tmrw's school starting at 8.20am.
and not only tmrw.it will be starting at 8.20am on every thursday.good right?!
kay kay,shall end here now.hopefully will get a new deck soon by myself. and.......
Labels: i wanna skate everyday, which is impossible.
Tuesday, July 7
four days didnt blog.ahah.well,today i have things to say.
friday have nothing much going on so no needa elaborate about it.
well,saturday is when the fun begins.went to skate with friends.
supposingly to meet qash and lin at bishan skatepark.
but due to my laziness,i didnt went to bishan.instead,i went to somerset.
cos haziq was there.so met up with him ferst.shortly after,qash arrived.
skated under the shiny bright hawwt Sun.perspired hell lot.
headed to centrepoint to eat Mac with Qash and Haziq.
after eating,Haziq have to go off with his friends.so left Qash and I.
we returned back to somerset for more skating.but since only the two of us.
went to meet up with lin and izzat at esplanade banks.had alot of fun there.
skated skated skated then police came.went off to sit down with a group of skaters.
there were some NDP rehearsal at esplanade area.there were helicopters and stuff.
not gonna reveal much,look forward to this year NDP then. =D
then went off again.skated to Dhoby Ghaut to meet lin's friend,terence i think.
im not sure about his name.hah.so we headed to the mall.for jamming.
it was awesome man!hah.after jamming,went to eat.got home at 11+.
actually can reached home early but the train that i took didnt go pasir ris.
as in i took the right train but its going to changi airport instead of pasir ris.
so got home,got scolding from dad.asking me why so late then got home and stuff.
sunday(05/07).didnt do much.at home with momma the whole day till dad came back.
monday which is yesterday.was an holiday due to youth day.
went out to Tampines Mall,Century Square and Tampines 1 with momma.
eat,walk,shop and more.was totally crowded at Tampines Mall cos of the Japanese Food Fair.
at around three,sister came to meet us.then followed by dad after his work.
went for a movie together.we watched Transformers.
it was awesome and i felt like watching it again.anyone?!heh heh.
today.school as usual.morning my class skipped the national anthem.
cos there wasnt any teacher around so we all didnt care about it.just did our own stuff.
class was funny.social studies lesson was crazy.write and write and write. -.-"
can kill that stupid new teacher from yishun town secondary.opps!
well.the rest of the day was alright.except came back from school was damn tired.
dozed off quite a few times but i keep telling myself not to sleep if not at night,die.
yeah.currently im feeling happy,feeling new,feeling good and more.
it's awesome i tell you!this feeling is goooooooooood! hah.
i wore blue tee shirt and blue bracelets.the sky was blue.blue blue blue.how wonderful!?
okay.im like some crazy person now.hah.this should be all for today's post.keep tuning in!
Labels: Im gonna move on now. Hopefully I can.
Friday, July 3
theres nothing left to say;
aloha people.sorry for not updating any thing.didn't know what to talk about and stuff.so yeah.well.today,nothing much.school's as usual.tmrw's plan is to skate with qash and some other people at Bishan.Sunday.not sure.Monday,no school.so also not sure.ahah.k k.this should be all.i don't think I'm gonna update these few days.unless anything special or any events or anything else.besides no one will be reading my blog.so no point.alright,goodbye and take care.Labels: so long and goodbye.
Wednesday, July 1
so sick;
sick; gastric pain is back.pain; just felt like dying.horrible night; i couldnt fall asleep.you; in my mind.alone; without you.is all this retribution from hurting you emotionally?
i know it is.i know i cannot do anything now.
but all i want you to know is that im sorry and i have never forget about you.
like what i said before.and i never did forget about you.
im really sorry Jeff. ):
Labels: i am really sorry.