Cant contact you for just one night, Im already dying soon.
I gotta be strong, but I cant...
Emotionally and mentally, I really cant.
Maybe with the company by my sis will help.
But she's not with me all the time now.
Even there's Chazzie Beary with me, it doesnt help me any much either.
I gotta be strong, independently..
But it takes time. How long? Im not sure.
I questioned myself, "Am I ready for this?"
No, not totally. With just 37 more days to go...
Im still not ready. I cant pull myself together.
Im not strong, independently.
But I will learn to be.
Cause if I dont, I will suffer emotionally, mentally and even physically.
For two years. How long or short? How fast or slow? I dont know.

But no matter what, Im willing to wait for you.
Because I know you're worth the wait.